On sunday our pastor was preaching out of Habakkuk and I thought this one part was really cool. It was about how you can have a frear that comes from your faith in God. I guess I always knew that but I never really thought about it. Some of the notes I took were...
- Habakkuk belived God had the power to bring about judgment. He believed that God would do exactly waht He said.
- Remember, to fear, to physically tremble under certain conditions, does not necessarily mean that you have no faith.
- we need more fear, to be fearful of God and His justuce, faith produces fear.

so yup that is half of what I was thinkin about sunday I was also thinking about something else the pastor was preaching on and that was about joy and being thankful in hard times. The secret of joy lies in its object (it's what you are joyful in) Everything was taken from Habakkuk but he didn't stop thanking God because his joy was found in Him.

My prayer is that i can be like that finding my joy in Christ alone and have a fear that is a result of my faith in God.

_My Prince Charming_
all i want it someone to who loves me
who thinks the world of me
i don't need diamond rings
or nice cars
just a little place to call a home
with someone to love
i don't need a rich man
just enough to get us by is all i ask
someone to call me a princess.
so you might think my prince charming
is quite different then yours but
it's the little things that count in my eyes

So for the past couple days i've been at the beach camping with my family. It was really fun. Even thought it was ssoooooo cold! and i am so glad to get to sleep in my bed tonight. While we were there despite the cold weather i took a couple nice walks. It was so nice to get away and just talk and be still with God. I've really been needing it lately but it is hard to do with a big family like mine and with school so it was nice to be away and to be abel to leave for a couple hours at a time and just be alone. So here are some scriptures God gave me during my 'walks'.

so lately i have been just wondering about what my life holds. what it is going to be like. what i'm supposed to do. So God gave me a verse that really encourged me. one of those that you read all the time but now it means a lot to me
jeremiah 29:11 for i know the thoughts that i think towards you, say the Lord.
thoughts of peace and and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

then this one...
jeremiah 29:13 And you will seek Me and find Me,
when you search for me with all your heart

so this is sorta something i've never really thought about. or i have but just kinda was like sure whatever then moved on. so yeah i guess i really need to think about it now.
psalm 45:10-12 Listen, Oh daughter consider and incline your ear;
forget you own people also, and your fathers house;
So the King will greatly desire your beauty'
Because He is your Lord, worship Him.
And the daughter of Tyre will come with a gift
The rich among the people will seek your favor.


so yes that is all for now...

let the rain fall down and wake my dreams, let it wash away my sanity cuz i wanna hear the thunder i wanna scream let the rain fall down i'm coming clean...

(Horray it's raining today!!!!)