When words become unclear, I shall focus with photographs. When images become inadequate, I shall be content with silence.

~Ansel Adams~

oh life...

so i just wanted to give a shout out to the guy today who came in to starbucks and told me i had nice teeth. i got a good laugh out of that : )

well summer is over. it makes me really quite sad. i decided that summer is my favorite time of year because i feel like each summer holds a new adventure. some of the highlights from this summer were...

- roadtrip to colorado
- lots of days at the beach
- sunshine
- volley ball
- 80's beach day
- my aunt sue getting married
- yearly Camp Pendleton camping trip
- stick shift
- being barefoot
- getting tan
- yosemite
- curly hair
- a nice walk on the beach with my friend

and that is only what i can think of off the top of my head! yeah this summer was so much fun but now its back to life and school and work. oh well i will just have to wait and plan my adventures for the next summer...

work...

so today i had a crazy day at work...and when i say crazy i mean it! i was only supposed to work 4.30 hours but ended up working 7. yeah that kinda says something. but i was happy to get some more hours in!
i some pretty silly customers like the guy who started singing frank sinatra to me and then the guy right behind him tried to put on this southern drawl, didn't work to good, but i was pretty funny. then there were these extremly hyper girls who were yelling at each other and yelling into the drive thru so much that we couldn't understand them, i cried i was laughing so hard at them.
needless to say i am sssooooo tired right now and cannot wait to go to bed! then its off to work again tomorrow!
yeah so hurry for pointless blogs!

the boys built a raft on one of our hikes, i'm not gonna lie i didn't really think it would float but it did! i guess they are just amazing raft builders.

my Aunt is a dj on tuesday morning so she let us go and pick out music and talk on the radio one morning.

the boys smokin' pipes. our nightly tradition.

the cool kids.

Colorado was amazing!! It is so beautiful there! I had so much fun spending time with my Grandparents and Aunt and Uncle. We fet so much into the week we were there! I am totally ready to go back again!

oh man i'm totally leaving for a little colorado road trip tomorrow...or wait today.

yeah i am really excited about it.

just wanted to share.

be back sometime next week...

is it just me or have the stars been extra bright lately?

i highly encourage you to lay outside and just gaze at the stars for awhile.

its beautiful.

i love stars.

oh our God is amazing.

amazing...

well this past friday was one of the best days! My family was out of town so my friend stayed over and well we pretty much had way to much fun. : )

oh i love my friends so much what can i say

One time I got a note and it said that I was an inspirer. You know I never really thought about myself that way. I mean I did always get annoyed when someone would 'copy' something I did. I wanted to be original, I don't like to be like everybody else. But I really like the thought of inspiring. I hope I can inspire people to do things. I want to inspire people do go on mission trips. I want them to think less about what will happen and what there going to do with there lives and more on the moment that there living that they'll never get back. To not waist there energy on being stressed out when it really isn't that big of a deal. To love without holding back. To spend time with there family while they have them, cuz they won't be there forever.

I really hope I can live up to what my friend said and be an inspirer.

Oscar Party... Britney, Nicole and Paris

i am so tired of people thinking i'm perfect. they seem to think i don't have any problems. when they want to encourge each other they just over look me. they think i'm this like machine who never stops.
well the truth is i'm tired. i have problems and i have to deal with them on my own cuz no one even tries to be there for me. i cling on to evey little encouraging thing someone says to me because it doesn't happen very often. and trust me i do stop. i can't even count the times i just lay on the floor and cry.
so i just wanted to let you know. i'm not some crazy indestructible perfect girl. i need people. i need friends. people say i seem stuck up and self confident and trust me i am pretty much the farthest thing from that.

a map of where i've been...

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'imperfection is beauty.
madness is genius.
& it's better to absolutely rediculous
then absolutely stupid.'
-Marilyn Monroe

'Dying for something is easy because it is associated with glory.
living for something...is the hard thing.
living for something extends beyound fashion, glory, or recognition.
we live for what we believe.'

'You wonder why people choose fields away from the States when young people at home are drifting because no one wants to take time to listen to their problems. Ill tell you why I left. Because those Stateside young people have every opportunity to study, hear, and understand the Word of God in their own language, and these Indians have no opportunity whatsoever. I have had to make a cross of two logs, and lie down on it, to show the Indians what it means to crucify a man. When there is that much ignorance over here and so much knowledge and opportunity over there, I have no question in my mind why God sent me here. Those whimpering Stateside young people will wake up on the Day of Judgment condemned to worse fates than these demon-fearing Indians, because, having a Bible, they were bored with it---while these never heard of such a thing as writing.'
-Jim Elliot

2 Things working at starbucks has taught me...

1. I talk really quiet. Only on occasion do I make it through work without someone complaning that they can hardly hear me when I talk. At first I'd say sorry and try to be louder now it just bothers me and I just tell them to get some hearing aids...ok not really but I want to.

2. I need to work on my writing skills I probably can't even count on one hand how many times I've written SCF for a syrup cream frap and they make a java chip frap which is JCF. Ok I'm not gonna lie to you my J's don't look anything like my S's do but they just seem to assume that I can't write so they try to help me when really it is what they think it is.

yup thats about it...

Psalm 8:3-9
When I consider Your heavens, the work of Your fingers,
The moon and the stars, which You have ordained,
What is man that You are mindful of him,
And the son of man that You visit him?
For You have made him a little lower than the angels,
And You have crowned him with glory and honor.
You have made him to have dominion over the works of Your hands;
You have put all things under his feet,
All sheep and oxen—
Even the beasts of the field,
The birds of the air,
And the fish of the sea
That pass through the paths of the seas.
O LORD, our Lord,
How excellent is Your name in all the earth!

I love getting out of doors...I guess you could call it my hiding place, my place of solitude, my meeting place with God. It is so calm and still listening to the wind blow, the birds sing, the trees rustle. Oh it is a beautiful time. When I get out in creation by myself I feel as though life is but a dream with its ups and downs twists and turns all leading to to one place and when I'm there everything is in it's place, I don't worry about what I have to do later, when will this happen or this get done, everything is put into perspective and can put everything in its place. Its a wonderful time with me and my Lord, my love.

What is this thing called life...because I don't know how to live it.
I feel like a blind person trying to take a hike, if I'd only use my guide more maybe I wouldn't have all these scrapes and bruises.

I think I need to take a step back and rethink this whole thing...

Pirate ships and whatnot...

yup we went to go see the pirate ship at the beach...it was pretty much amazing. Grumpy Gracie (aka Joanna) was ssoooo excited!

-HAPPINESS
I've relized that sometimes choosing to be happy is kind of a joke. I don't believe that happiness is a choice.
I don't believe an individual can "decide" away a chemical embalance or be happy every situation.
I think Joy is a choice but also that you can have joy and still be sad. Joy is probably closer to a perspective then an emotion. . . I don't always have happiness to keep me going.
I won't try anymore to find it.
Why, after lying to the whole world,would i turn and try and lie to myself?
As a side note, i am actualy happy.

- josh -

" Anyway, I hope that you are doing well and enjoying being single :). I have no doubt that God has an amazing, godly, wonderful, gorgeous, funny, smart, awesome man for you out there. If He created Eve just for Adam, I'm sure God has created an "Adam" for you too! Just to let you know, I'm half giving myself the same advice right now :)." haha oh I love my friends!
You know I have been doing a lot of praying lately. but hey thats a good thing so i'm glad. as much as a wish life wasn't hard you know if life was all just fine and dandy it would be so boring and we wouldn't have much character. so i just press on.
yeah so i guess lately you could say i've been a little random in my thoughts...ok so maybe i'm just like this all the time.

yeah my life has been pretty silly lately. i almost started crying when i couldn't find a new devo book at the store. then i had to spend like 2 hours of the night with this girl who is always mean to me. but my friend said i have a pleasant laugh so i think that is a good thing. then i had a yummy misto. tomorrow i have the day off and i have no school. i got a bright red ribbon to go on my civil war dress. i love my family. the end.