-HAPPINESS
I've relized that sometimes choosing to be happy is kind of a joke. I don't believe that happiness is a choice.
I don't believe an individual can "decide" away a chemical embalance or be happy every situation.
I think Joy is a choice but also that you can have joy and still be sad. Joy is probably closer to a perspective then an emotion. . . I don't always have happiness to keep me going.
I won't try anymore to find it.
Why, after lying to the whole world,would i turn and try and lie to myself?
As a side note, i am actualy happy.

- josh -