I'm Part of the fellowship of the unashamed.

I have the Holy Spirit power.

The die has been cast.

I have stepped ove the line.

The decision has been made- I'm a Disciple of His.

I won't look back, let up, slow down , back away or be still.

My past is redeemed, my prescence makes sense, my future sucure.

I'm finished and done with low living, sight walking, smooth knees , colorless dreams, famed visions, worldly talking, cheap giving and dwarfed goals.

I no longer need preeminence, position, promotions, plaudits or popularity.

I dont have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded or rewarded.

I now live by faith, lean in His presence, walk by paitence, am uplifted by prayer, and I labor with power.

My face is set, my gait is fast, my goal is heaven.

My road narrow, my way rough, my companions are few, My Guide reliable and my mission clear.

I cannot be bought, comprimised, detoured, lured away,turned back deluded or delayed.

I will not flinch in the face of the sacrifice, hesitate in the prescence of the enemy, pander in the pool of popularity, or meanderin the maze of meadiocracy.

I won't give, shut up or let up ,until ive stayed up stored up, prayed up, paid up, and preach up for the cause of Christ.

I am a disciple of Jesus.

I must go till He comes, give till I drop , preach till all know , and work till He stops me.

And, when He comes for his own,
He will have no problem reconizing me...

MY BANNER WILL BE CLEAR!

- Written by a young pastor in Zimbabwe, Africa, before being martyred for his faith in Christ

I just read that and I thought it was amazing. I hope and pray that if I am faced with being killed because of my faith I will respond in a way like him.

Hello all,
Well I just got back from a worship concert thing at my church. It was really awesome. It was with 3 of the guys who are usual in our Sunday morning worship band and then this one guy Chris (the reason we were having this) who used to go to our church and his friend. It was funny because they were pretending like it was a real concert so they were totally rocking out and at the end Chris was like 'you guys are the best concert we've played!!' and stuff like that. It was fun.

But on a more serious house Chris kind told his testomny and he was like 'I want to tell you about the happiest day of my life' But he started nine month earlier and told about the day him and his wife found out she was pregnate and then showed a cute video of the day because they video taped like it all. Ok so by now I was getting all tearied up and you will find out why. Then he said something like 'then five month later my wife woke up one morning and went over to our babes bed which was next to ours and he wasn't moving or breathing and I went over and check him and then we called the ambulance' They got to the hospital and they said there was nothing they could do and on November 10th baby Silas died. So of course I had the seat right behind Cheryl (chris' wife) and Chris' sister Tracy and they were both crying and then Tracys daughter who is around 8 or 9 and she started crying! It was so sad and sweet and I couldn't help it the tears fell down my face. I can't even imagine what it must be like. And I have a great respect for Chris and Cheryl and how they haven't blamed God about this all and how they are leaning on Him for strength and peace and knowing that they will see there son again in heaven.

So yeah that was my evening. Prompted some interesting decisions. Well I guess that is it for now.

me with short red hair... ok it is a wig  

me and my little sister Jo having fun 

~Once Again~
By Hannah Arlene

Here I am broken again
Wonded and not wanting to go on
Show me Your love once again
i need Your help

I'm falling into Your arms again
Wrap me close and let me know You are there
I'm cold by the ways of this world warm me in Your loving arms once again

Someday I'll be with You forever
A place where I won't shed another tear
Please help me press on and not give up
I need You now

me and my d-group leader Brianna playing chess in Ireland!! 

me at the beach!  

~You can't hurry love~
I need love, love to ease my mind
I need to find, find someone to call mine
but mama said

* you can't hurry love
oh you'll just have to wait
she said love dont come easy
its a game of give and take
you cant hurry love no you'll just have to wait
you gotta just give it time no matter how long it takes

but how many heartaches must i stand
before i find a love to let me live again
right now the only thing that keeps me hanging on
when i feel my strength, yeah is almost gone
i remember mama said*

how long must i wait
how much more can i take
before loneliness will cause my heart, heart to break
no i can't bear to live my life alone
i grow impatient for a love to call my own
but when i feel that i, i can't go on
these precious words keeps me hanging on
i remember mama said*

but i keep on waiting, anticipating
for that soft voice to talk to me at night
for some tender arms to hold me tight
i keep waiting, i keep on waiting
but it aint easy, it aint easy*


ok i love that song!! i heard it the other day and i knew it but i'd never really listend to the words. well now i like it even more! heehee

i just decided i like the word Honorificabilitudinitotibus which means the state of being able to achieve honors. I don't care about what it means i just liked the word. : )

I was reading this really cool book my parents have it has just a bunch of charts on theolgy. it is really intresting. i was reading all the attrbutes of God and then i was looking at the names of God the two i liked the most where
El Shaddai-Almighty God or All-sufficient God
and then
Yahwey Yire-Yahweh will provide
and then i was looking at names of the devil and the one i really liked was
god of this world- controls the philosophy of this world= 2 Cor. 4:4
i thought that was a really cool way of describing him. inresting.
this is something exciting i read in my devo book the other day...
'People may spurn your counsel and ignore your suggestions, but they can not escape your prayers.' Harold Sala hahaha!! Isn't that one cool?

well that looks like enough for now. : ) i hope you all are having a good time with life!
do you know what bothers me the most about myself? is how good of an actor i am, it's not cool.

Sometimes I wonder if I'll make it to 25 I wonder what will happen with my life. I don't really know what I want to do with my life. All I want to do is live my life as God wants me to. I don't know what that is but I'm not giving up. Even though some people have been telling me I'm not going to make it, something will happen and I will do something wrong. They are right to a point, I wouldn't make it on my own. But when the times get though I'll just lean on God and He will help me through. It's me against this world and I don't care.

Ok now it is time for me to stop thinking. : )

who needs a guy when you rock your own world?!?!?!

Ok so it is like the 4th and my first time to post this year.heehee

Today I was thinking about my Ireland family!!! I haven't seen them since last year!!! That is so sad. I miss them all so much. I haven't seen any of them since geting home. I have so many memories with all them! having no clue how to use my phone card(thank you Josh!), Tooth brush lady, risking my life to take a picture, secreatly eating ice cream in the kitchen, eating digestives with Abby, polkaing with Stephany, singing with Brianna, meeting people from colorado at the resturant in London, singing 'only hope' so much I'm sick of it, and sssoooooo many more.
Can you belive that all happened last summer?!?!?!?!?!?!?

"-To meet the guy that Hannah is gonna marry "u wann supersize those fries?" aww..hannah how romantic"

Thanks Olivia!! Someday that will happen. But why do you always think he is going to work at mcdonalds or some place like that? Hopefully he will work somewere else. But I guess if he is everything else i want then i can deal with the fact he works at mcdonalds. Question though...will he dance with me? That is a must. He doesn't have to dance good but as long as he is willing to dance with me it will all be good. Next time you come up we can continue those lessons on how to get a guy. How do you do it?!?!?!hahahaha I'll try the whole chili fries in the face. I guess guys like that.lol

HAPPY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!
and a merry new year!!!

well let us see, it is christmas eve. Tomorrow I will wake up and it will be christmas. wow That is crazy! Did I tell you guys tomorrow is CHRISTMAS!!! the one day every kid looks forward to all year, the day were I get so excited when everyone opens the gifts I gave them. Yup that is what tomorrow is. But the most important thing to remember is that God sent His son for us. It has never been more poweful then this christmas what it means. I guess I've been a kid all these years, a kid who only thought about the gifts and mind you it wasn't as much as the gifts I was getting but the ones I was giving. But this christmas I figured out how to be a kid and remember why I'm celebrating.

And the best thing about tomorrow is I won't be sick!!!! yesssss. Ok so instead of being tomorrow I feel rotten today! haha Ok so I take what I can get.

I don't know about you all but right now all the troops we have all over the world are in my prayers. I know one of the parts of christmas I love is being with my family, that is part of christmas. I can't picture it without them. So I just hope you all will keep them in your prayers also. And remember all you and all of us as americans have to be thankful for.

I hope all of you (whoever if anyone reads this.haha) have a wonderful day. If anyone who reads this is having a white christmas. Eat some snow for me :)

well let's see right now there is a sickness going around in our house. so fun!! and perfect timing also right before christmas. which means there is a 99% chance someone will be sick on christmas. And i'm just waiting to start throwing up now. i get one of the funnest parts, just sitting around waiting. Yup and my older sister is being herself and not helping me much. it is all fun stuff!!hahaha Well i guess i will just sit i'm tired of making cookies and i'm hoping that somehow, someway, i won't throw up. I hate yes HATE throw up with passion. but i did decided that it is ok to eat the pizza now because i'd rather have fun at eat now. And plus i'd rather throw up something then nothing. so that is it. so long for now.

I just decided that all moms who have two sons have to be a bit crazy to be able to deal with them and they are awesome and I don't know how they do it. yup. I baby sat 2 little boys today. They are so wield but they are fun to baby sit you just have to have a LOT of energy. i don't mean the moms were crazy when they had them just after they did. They become crazy so they could do it. I've always wanted boys when I have kids and the ones i baby sat today didn't change me. I just decided that I'm going to become crazy! So that was my thought for the day.

"You've failed many times, although you don't remember. You fell down the first time you tried to walk. You almost drowned the first time you tried to swim. . . . Don't worry about failure. . . . Worry about the chances you miss when you don't even try."

"God allows us to experience the low points of life in order to teach us lessons we could not learn in any other way. The way we learn those lessons is not to deny the feelings but to find the meanings underlying them."

a good friend is one who will make you feel happy when love isn't around (that is such a true quote in my life!)

ok so those are just some cool quotes i found.

so what can i say i'm a blonde!
tonight at awanas me and my friend (also a blonde) were puting a table away. so it belonged behind a couch, so i was moving it and set it right on her foot! then she was just like 'oh haha that is ok' then next thing i know she has me pinned up against the wall with the table. she totaly didn't even realize it ether. so i was like 'aagghhhh i'm stuck!' and all the while all the little girls are sitting there laughing at us. hahahahaha it was ssoooo funny!!! me and my friend were like 'see this is what happens when you send two blondes to do a job!'
so i had a lot of fun tonight at awanas. the girls are always really fun.

This is who I am.
I'm 5'6. I have blonde hair and blue yes.
I love wearing flip-flops, taking walks in the rain and singing while I'm walking.
I love going out at night and looking at the stars, cuddling up on the couch with a nice cup of tea and a good book.
I love listening to Josh Groban (his voices is so amazing) and wearing my pink plastic crown.
I like turning up my music and dancing in front of the mirror, taking long walks and listening to the birds sing.
I love it the way one rose can signify so much.
I like history. I like moca frapucciono, used book stores,
and the way the sun rises in between the mountains.
I love laughing so hard it hurts, singing in the shower.
I love splashing in the ocean and running through the fields.
I love how paintings can say so much and old black and white photos.
There are a lot of funny things that I like.
But they are what makes me well...ME!

HOW CAN I KEEP MY FEET ON THE GROUND WHEN I KNOW I WAS BORN TO FLY? (some song i heard the other day)

whoever said life was easy didn't know how to live

ok just some random thoughts for today

On sunday our pastor was preaching out of Habakkuk and I thought this one part was really cool. It was about how you can have a frear that comes from your faith in God. I guess I always knew that but I never really thought about it. Some of the notes I took were...
- Habakkuk belived God had the power to bring about judgment. He believed that God would do exactly waht He said.
- Remember, to fear, to physically tremble under certain conditions, does not necessarily mean that you have no faith.
- we need more fear, to be fearful of God and His justuce, faith produces fear.

so yup that is half of what I was thinkin about sunday I was also thinking about something else the pastor was preaching on and that was about joy and being thankful in hard times. The secret of joy lies in its object (it's what you are joyful in) Everything was taken from Habakkuk but he didn't stop thanking God because his joy was found in Him.

My prayer is that i can be like that finding my joy in Christ alone and have a fear that is a result of my faith in God.

_My Prince Charming_
all i want it someone to who loves me
who thinks the world of me
i don't need diamond rings
or nice cars
just a little place to call a home
with someone to love
i don't need a rich man
just enough to get us by is all i ask
someone to call me a princess.
so you might think my prince charming
is quite different then yours but
it's the little things that count in my eyes

So for the past couple days i've been at the beach camping with my family. It was really fun. Even thought it was ssoooooo cold! and i am so glad to get to sleep in my bed tonight. While we were there despite the cold weather i took a couple nice walks. It was so nice to get away and just talk and be still with God. I've really been needing it lately but it is hard to do with a big family like mine and with school so it was nice to be away and to be abel to leave for a couple hours at a time and just be alone. So here are some scriptures God gave me during my 'walks'.

so lately i have been just wondering about what my life holds. what it is going to be like. what i'm supposed to do. So God gave me a verse that really encourged me. one of those that you read all the time but now it means a lot to me
jeremiah 29:11 for i know the thoughts that i think towards you, say the Lord.
thoughts of peace and and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

then this one...
jeremiah 29:13 And you will seek Me and find Me,
when you search for me with all your heart

so this is sorta something i've never really thought about. or i have but just kinda was like sure whatever then moved on. so yeah i guess i really need to think about it now.
psalm 45:10-12 Listen, Oh daughter consider and incline your ear;
forget you own people also, and your fathers house;
So the King will greatly desire your beauty'
Because He is your Lord, worship Him.
And the daughter of Tyre will come with a gift
The rich among the people will seek your favor.


so yes that is all for now...