me and my d-group leader Brianna playing chess in Ireland!! 

me at the beach!  

~You can't hurry love~
I need love, love to ease my mind
I need to find, find someone to call mine
but mama said

* you can't hurry love
oh you'll just have to wait
she said love dont come easy
its a game of give and take
you cant hurry love no you'll just have to wait
you gotta just give it time no matter how long it takes

but how many heartaches must i stand
before i find a love to let me live again
right now the only thing that keeps me hanging on
when i feel my strength, yeah is almost gone
i remember mama said*

how long must i wait
how much more can i take
before loneliness will cause my heart, heart to break
no i can't bear to live my life alone
i grow impatient for a love to call my own
but when i feel that i, i can't go on
these precious words keeps me hanging on
i remember mama said*

but i keep on waiting, anticipating
for that soft voice to talk to me at night
for some tender arms to hold me tight
i keep waiting, i keep on waiting
but it aint easy, it aint easy*


ok i love that song!! i heard it the other day and i knew it but i'd never really listend to the words. well now i like it even more! heehee

i just decided i like the word Honorificabilitudinitotibus which means the state of being able to achieve honors. I don't care about what it means i just liked the word. : )

I was reading this really cool book my parents have it has just a bunch of charts on theolgy. it is really intresting. i was reading all the attrbutes of God and then i was looking at the names of God the two i liked the most where
El Shaddai-Almighty God or All-sufficient God
and then
Yahwey Yire-Yahweh will provide
and then i was looking at names of the devil and the one i really liked was
god of this world- controls the philosophy of this world= 2 Cor. 4:4
i thought that was a really cool way of describing him. inresting.
this is something exciting i read in my devo book the other day...
'People may spurn your counsel and ignore your suggestions, but they can not escape your prayers.' Harold Sala hahaha!! Isn't that one cool?

well that looks like enough for now. : ) i hope you all are having a good time with life!
do you know what bothers me the most about myself? is how good of an actor i am, it's not cool.

Sometimes I wonder if I'll make it to 25 I wonder what will happen with my life. I don't really know what I want to do with my life. All I want to do is live my life as God wants me to. I don't know what that is but I'm not giving up. Even though some people have been telling me I'm not going to make it, something will happen and I will do something wrong. They are right to a point, I wouldn't make it on my own. But when the times get though I'll just lean on God and He will help me through. It's me against this world and I don't care.

Ok now it is time for me to stop thinking. : )

who needs a guy when you rock your own world?!?!?!

Ok so it is like the 4th and my first time to post this year.heehee

Today I was thinking about my Ireland family!!! I haven't seen them since last year!!! That is so sad. I miss them all so much. I haven't seen any of them since geting home. I have so many memories with all them! having no clue how to use my phone card(thank you Josh!), Tooth brush lady, risking my life to take a picture, secreatly eating ice cream in the kitchen, eating digestives with Abby, polkaing with Stephany, singing with Brianna, meeting people from colorado at the resturant in London, singing 'only hope' so much I'm sick of it, and sssoooooo many more.
Can you belive that all happened last summer?!?!?!?!?!?!?